I Am Officially Single Again

Posted by Nagashiko on Jul 8, 2009 in Decisions, Depression, Emo, Hatred, I dunno, Music, Rants |

…after a 7-year relationship. He initiated the breakup but I was the one who broke up with him ‘coz of my pride.

When I broke up with my boyfriend, I said harsh words to him without any hesitation and even accused him of emotional adultery, which I later found out was right. I made him more irritated and drove him further away.

I felt bad and I allowed myself to get jealous of the new girl. I guess I wasn’t really strong enough to live without him.

Since we’ve gone separate ways, I’ve been psychotic. But after my insanity, I decided to just listen to music instead. Here are the songs I listened to over and over again.

— Never Say Never – The Fray
— Best I ever had – Vertical Horizon
— Broken – Seether and Amy Lee
— Coldplay – The Scientist
— Miss you love – Silverchair
— Where I stood – Missy Higgins
— Jet – Look what you’ve done
— Three Doors Down – Here Without You
— Blink 182 – Time to Break Up
— My Immortal – Evanescence
— Emotion Sickness – Silverchair

Listening to depressing songs after a breakup doesn’t make a whole lot of sense… but I did it. Maybe I just wanted to cry it all out than keep it inside and pretend to be okay with everything.

Breaking up is never easy and it is really just a painful and unavoidable part of life, like going to the dentist. But I have a whole new life ahead of me. Who knows? Maybe the guy for me might just be around me all along. =)